I've made a decision.

Okay. I've officially decided that I will go through with restarting dA. But, I'm not going to be creating a new account. I don't feel that's necessary and I've already come so far on this account. You guys all have shown me this and thank you for that! Not to mention this premium would be rotting. Another point you guys made was I can't perfect my art. That's impossible. All I've gotta do is keep trying and never give up. Everyone improves, but it takes time. I can't force it. Not only did you guys point this out but I think my forever broken pinky kinda resembles that, in a way. It's forever broken because I chose drawing over healing. Er.. wait, I don't even.. ok that has no relation to this moral rofl. shhsh i have my own point-of-vieWS!!1
ON TOPIC AGAIN OK, so my way of restarting is basically just... well, starting fresh. And I mean even my characters. I'm going to be deleting all but 2 at most. The one(s) I don't delete will be getting a huge make-over. I honestly feel very comfortable about this, for some reason. I feel though as if I'm fresh and clean if I do this. All of my characters have had some sort of effect on me in my life outside the computer and it'll be so great to release it all. I'll change my username for hopefully the last time, redo my page, practice drawing, design new characters, find new fandoms (if I even feel like I want one..), delete embarrassing drawings...
Yeah, you get the idea.
I wanna thank all of you who commented on my journal supporting me and encouraging me and lifting me up. I was expecting a bunch of hate. Honestly, I was. I know a lot of people hate vents out there and I knew people would be upset over my deletion of Flash. But.. I'm thankful for those who encouraged it for my happiness rather than discouraged it for their own selfish reasons. Flash was a big pain in my, excuse the language, assssssss, and its so good to get that heavy weight off my shoulder.
Seriously, you guys are THE best. Honestly, you're all true friends. I can't thank you enough. I swear, you're the reason that I keep going everyday. I'd lose it if I didn't have any of you. It's been a very hard time for me and just aaghh thanks.~~
And I know people have it worse than me. Even some of you. And I'm always here if y'wanna talk, just as you are for me.


Love y'alllsss, I'll probably get around to redoing my dA soon.
Because I've been on the computer more lately...
yep ewe... neopets.


- Oreo, CJ, whatever the heck you fkn call me anymore now ;w;;